Autopsy # 5: Heath Ledger

Heath Andrew Ledger – 4-4-1979

Date of Death: 1 – 22-2008

Accidental Overdose

I don’t know a lot about Heath Ledger.  I follow famous musicians more closely than actors, but I remember the astonishing news of his death 3 years ago. He had finished working on The Dark Knight, for which he earned a posthumous Oscar (Best Supporting Actor) for his beautifully twisted portrayal of the Joker. The release of the latest Batman installment was already being eagerly anticipated. The Aussie actor’s death heightened the fervor with which we waited for its release.

He had some trouble sleeping. A lot of trouble. He couldn’t quiet his mind, couldn’t shut it down. He had  prescriptions for Lunesta and Temazapam for his insomnia. He also had prescriptions for Valium, Ativan, and Xanax for anxiety. He also had some Oxycontin and Vicodin on hand for pain.

The toxicology findings identified a lethal combination of six medications in his system at death. His Karmic Lesson was 6, meaning that when this energy was present, he’d feel a bit of a drag or some turbulence in his momentum. Because 6 was also his accessible soul energy,  its influence as a karmic lesson was likely less of a disturbance – but in the end, it proved to be poetic, I suppose.

Family, responsibility, and community are all governed by 6. This is also the number of the natural world – plants, botany, animals, as well as the natural movement toward harmony and balance. When I mention harmony and balance, I’m not talking about  social ideals, per se, but the real and instinctual tendency of all things in the natural world to exist in balanced ecology. In humans, this necessity for balance is sometimes, misinterpreted by our pre-frontal cortex as the need for perfection. Balance  is a desirable state– it is necessary, it is homeostasis, and as such is attainable, sustainable, a thing that can be realized.

Perfection, on the other hand,  will keep you up at night.

Ledger’s Life Path number was 7 – specifically a 16/7. There’s that 6 again. The equation is basically this: The Self encountering or exhibiting an energy of needing to control in an attempt to attain perfection will collapse under the weight of that expectation, ending up in the realm of 7 – where one has no observable control over anything.

An extremely cerebral energy, 7 governs the realm of ideas, plans, knowledge – the mind. It is also the vibration around  prayer, wisdom, and dreams. Individuals working this energy like to have their ducks in a row before they act. They feel more comfortable having a contingency plan, and sometimes exhibit a crippling fear of the unknown.

It seems that Ledger challenged his fears of the unknown, mastering the fear aspect of his life path number by meeting challenges head on deliberately and on purpose. I would attribute this courage to his 5 Destiny and Intensity. His desire to live in the moment, attached to neither past nor future, is a textbook 5 quality, and in fact is the gift of this number for those who balance its energy. It changes direction often, as life does. This is a number that moves, expands, and so carries some instability. It is also an energy which governs the appetites, and curiosity, enticing its subject to taste everything.

On the surface, 7 and 5 want different things. 7 moves through life more calculating and cautious, whereas 5 moves with reckless abandon, but in the end they require the subject to remain present and faithful that are OK now, and will be OK – wherever they end up. It seems that Ledger managed to use the gifts from both of these numbers to complement each energy’s influence.

So what went wrong?

Let’s look at his main challenge, which was 4, the number around grounding, focus, structure, and the physical body.

Looking at the abundance of mental energy in his chart, I would guess that lack of grounding was a troubling pattern for the actor. Both 6 and 4 have a domesticating influence, and while his Destiny number may have encouraged a wanderlust, his 6 soul longed for the stability of a family and a home base. The 4 challenge also indicates a need to reign in appetites and reckless behavior, and to attend to one’s health.

His personal year at the time he died was 9, a time of endings, release, and reward. January was a 1 personal month, indicating a time of increased energy, creativity, focus on his place in this world. His last personal day was a 5 – sudden and unexpected changes.

I don’t know the apartment number where he died,  but I’ve heard it was on the 4th floor. The building’s address is 421 – which adds up to a 7, his life path number. This is another instance of the poetic appearance of numbers in key events, particularly at the time of death.

Probably the most ironic thing about his death, numerologically  speaking, was his lack of sleep (and dreams). Dreams are governed by 7. This is the number of quiet places, of sanctuary. The word sanctuary adds up/reduces to 7.

He lives in that mystery now. Sweet dreams, Heath.

So….Why?

Because it’s interesting.

My first autopsy was Marilyn Monroe -about 24 years ago, when I was first  experimenting  with numerology and the depth of information I could glean from a mere nine numbers. I did her chart calculations, and the numbers around her death.  I was floored by how accurate, detailed, and personal the results were.

It got me thinking: Can I predict my death using numerology?

Every book I’ve read about the topic says No. I’m sure better minds than mine have attempted it. But I’m not convinced it can’t be done. This is how Celebrity Numerology Autopsy came about, really. I’ve kept track of the charts of famous dead people, as well as family and friends of mine who have passed. I’ve made meticulous charts in an attempt at finding numbers or patterns which might either pin point or approximate the timing of death.

What I believe it this: If death is a fixed event – whether it’s a single event or a third strike your out – it must be indicated somewhere in a person’s numerology chart.

If it cannot be predicted using numerology (or any other system), then death is not a fixed event. It may not even be a certainty, an eventuality. Or we may have a number of ‘windows’ through which we can be resorbed back into the cosmic, quantum fabric.

I find patterns within individual charts, but these are not repeated in everyone’s numbers. Some people die in a personal year which is the same as their life path number. Others die surrounded by numbers that are seen in their intensity, challenge, and karmic lesson numbers.

I still believe there is a pattern, and it’s applicable to everyone. I’m personally uncomfortable with indeterminate circumstances around death. If I can’t have the certainty I desire in life, I want that structure around death, at least.

That’s to be expected of my 4 life path, I suppose.

I’m interested in your opinions, ideas, or theories about these things.

–Griz

Autopsy #4: Kurt Cobain

Kurt Donald Cobain – 2-20-1967

Date of Death: 4-5-1994

Suicide

Kurt Cobain would have turned 44 today. He ended his life in April of 1994 by putting a shotgun in his mouth, after injecting himself with a lethal dose of black tar heroin. According to Charles Cross’ biography of the doomed singer, Heavier than Heaven, he had accomplished the same feat three other men in his family had years before: he killed himself twice.

Inheriting what he called “suicide genes”, Cobain deeply internalized all the losses in his life: his parents’ divorce, the violent deaths of his uncles and grandfather, his mother’s rejection,  among other real and perceived losses and failures.

Both disaffected and sensitive, Kurt Cobain was a complex man and difficult to know. Two numbers seem to influence his life and behavior more than any others: 2 and 9.

Governing the emotions, attraction, and reflecting his self-image, 2 appears in Kurt’s chart as both his Destiny number and his Attainment number. It’s also his birth date, and one of his Intensity numbers. Except for the fact that there are no 7s or 8s in his name, and three 3s and 2s, there are two 1s, 4s, 5s, 6s, and 9s in his name.

2 is a number which seeks to connect. It wants relationship, it needs to belong. It finds purpose and value in connection. This was certainly true for Kurt, whose close bonds with his parents  were ripped apart by divorce when he was nine. His world unraveled, his sense of security undone, the split proved to be the pivotal event in his life. The desire to please is a 2 quality most recognizable in Kurt’s deference to his wife, Courtney Love,  and in his devotion to creating authentic and inspired music for his fans. 2s are also known for their likability, easy-going nature, and attractiveness. They are quiet, patient, and passive. These traits were evident in Cobain, who could sustain long periods of silence.

The most troubling number around Kurt Cobain is 9. This is an energy of destruction and self-negation, especially in the position of Life Path, which is one of the key places it shows up in Cobain’s chart.

In the end, 9 wants its subject to not take life so personally. It attempts to destroy the bonds of ego in order to impart the understanding that self-preservation is futile  within the vastness of Source.  In this context, neither Self, nor Preservation has meaning. Our essence cannot be destroyed, changed, insulted, or even improved. It is immutable. And this is the difficult lesson of the 9 life path.

In Kurt Cobain’s life we see this demonstrated in the losses he experienced, the destruction of life and relationships became a repeated pattern over the course of his 27 years. An interesting dichotomy occurs between the destructive, unraveling trajectory of 9 and the attachment driven 2. This may explain the  paradox of a  sensitive, loving soul, and the hardened, jaded, apathetic misanthrope. Both 9 and 2 are generous and loving energies – the 2 expressing love within intimate relationships, and the 9 opening up to love on a bigger scale, recognizing the connection between all life.

The negative aspects of both of these energies presents as apathy, narcissism, and especially in 9, guardedness. Boundary issues are a problem for both numbers, as the need to please and be loved and accepted make people working these numbers vulnerable, self-effacing doormats.

In Kurt’s life, 9 carries out its destructive mission to the hilt – it is his life path, his personal year at the time of his death, his age at the time of his death (adds up to 9), the personal day at the time of his death, and the address of the home where he committed suicide, a home he and his wife purchased in January of that year, was 171 – adds up to 9.

It’s interesting to note, that just shortly after his 9th birthday, his parents divorced. This was also a 9 year for him.

While 9 and 2 both desire love, what they require of the subject is self-love and forgiveness. These processes are crucial in moving through events that force us to see ourselves in they way others treat us. It is easy, and natural, to focus on our failures, to dwell on our imperfections, and then to decide that we are not worthy of happiness because of these things. This makes it difficult or even impossible to receive love from others. He had no difficulty loving others. He mentions that fact that he “loves and feels for people too much” twice in his suicide note.  Self-hatred killed Kurt Cobain. That the world failed to be a loving place was his fault, in his mind.

I’d like to add a thought about his address, 171. The 7 appears between two 1s. 7 is the number of the dark night, of depression, of fear of the unknown. The two 1s, of course add up to 2, and each represents the self – one in this world, the other in the next, on the other side of the mystery of 7.

Happy Birthday Kurt.

Autopsy # 3: Janis Joplin

Janis Lyn Joplin – 1-19-1943

Date of Death: 10-04-1970

Age: 27

1 Life Path, Attainment, Personal Year at Death, Main Challenge, Intensity, Birthday, Soul

As I calculated Janis Joplin’s chart, I was astounded at the number of 1s that kept appearing. Not only in the positions in her numerology chart, but in two of Rolling Stone’s polls, her rankings add up to/reduce to  1 as well. (46th Greatest Artists of All Time, 2004, and 28th Greatest Singers of All Time, 2008).

Certainly, she was a pioneer blazing the trail for women in the male dominated world of Rock and Roll. But even before she had made a name for herself as an outstanding blues and rock vocalist, she stood out. A self-described misfit, she hung out on the fringe with other outcasts in school, and  even though she made attempts at walking the straight and narrow, was never able to remain for very long within the boundaries of convention.

The experience of a 1 life path, especially with so much 1 energy elsewhere in her chart, can be isolating. This is the spirit of the maverick, the leader, the consummate risk-taker.  The challenge is to lead without alienating – to entice others to follow – not drive them away.  Over a lifetime, an individual has a lot of opportunities to balance this energy.

There is a lot of creative energy in 1, which can be expressed a myriad of ways: Art, invention, sex,–this vibration is the dynamic, throbbing verve urging to become manifest. Janis had it in spades.

2 – Personal Month at death, Karmic Lesson & 6 – Personal Day at death

The reflective, harmonizing energy of 2 is missing from Janis Joplin’s chart and her name. It only appears as the energy in play as her personal month in October of 1970.  This energy drags a little(compared to 1) – and is passive, waiting, reflective.  Because of its reflective quality, tension can arise in relationships when 2 is active. And not just one’s relationship to a lover, friend, colleague, etc., but the relationship to all aspects of one’s life is brought to the fore during this time. Sometimes doubt creeps in  when 2 energy is heightened, and the need to reach out and connect is necessary. That her personal day was a 6 underscores the craving for connection, harmony, and love, and the fact that she overdosed in room 105 (adds up to 6) casts a poignant light on  her attempt to feel love, relief, balance with artificial substances. Interestingly the room number is composed of 1 – her life path number, 0, the field where choices are made, and 5, the number of freedom, abandon, and debauchery.

5 – Soul Number (undercurrent), 1st Pinnacle,  & 3 – 1st Challenge

Exploring number 5 further, it appears as one of her soul numbers ( undercurrent) and as her first pinnacle. This energy has much in common with 1, it’s adventurous, in perpetual motion, curious, and impatient. The movement of 5 is chaotic and changes direction often. Its purpose is to expand and move forward, but there is instability in this movement. As her undercurrent soul number, this vibration would lend itself to a fearlessness needed for a trailblazing 1 life path. 5s and 1s are willing and eager to try anything once – anything. Janis’ 5 soul likely heightened her sensual appetites and amplified her craving for drugs and alcohol.

As her 1st pinnacle, the 5 energy is available as a motivating force, presenting many opportunities to taste all that life has to offer, to promote one’s self, to travel, and to experience the freedom of living in the moment, being neither tied to the past, nor afraid of the future. Her challenge during this time was a 3, which has many of the sensual and creative components of 5, but is more emotional, and presses its subject to remain focused instead of scattering energy and resources.

7 – Soul (Aspiration) Pearl

Janis’  Soul number in the aspiration position was 7. Her nickname Pearl, reduces to a 7 also. The number in this position represents  a quality that the soul wishes to embody, a  gift that we wish to express, it is often a talent or an ability that we think we don’t already possess. I can only surmise that she may have wished to have faith  in herself, in god, in the supportive action of the universe. 7 is the number of sanctuary, of prayer, of mind over matter. This energy shares some of the qualities in 1 – namely isolation,intelligence, perfection, and the willingness to get from here to there alone.

It’s possible that in the persona of Pearl, Janis sought a place to  reinvent herself, to temper her soul, and perhaps to eventually emerge more actualized, purified. Or maybe, Pearl was a place to hide and dream.   Interestingly, the heroin that killed her was as lethal as it was because of its purity.

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Autopsy # 2: Ian Curtis

Ian Kevin Curtis  7-15-1956

Date of Death 5-18-1980

Age:23

13/4Personal Year at time of death, Destiny Number, 1st Pinnacle

Ian was 23 when he died, just as Joy Division was to embark on their US tour. People often see an increase in work, responsibility, and need for organization during a 4 year.  This number appears several times in is chart: as his Destiny, one of his  Soul numbers (soul aspiration position) one of his Karmic Lessons, and it’s his first Pinnacle.

4 energy is  denser and slow moving, and people working with it may feel like they are wading through cement, expending a lot of effort but seeming to get nowhere. Unless one is patient, this can be a frustrating number to deal with. But what it attempts to do is stabilize. It forces one to stay with the process and build steadily. The gravity of 4’s plodding movement may have been what proved to much for Ian, who hanged himself in his kitchen after sending his wife away for the night.

Ian craved stability – but struggled to achieve balance as he attempted to cope with  depression, the ramifications of an extramarital affair on his marriage, and frequent epileptic seizures. He desired the rootedness of family but rebelled against the oppressiveness of the responsibility.

9 – Personal Month and Day (at death), Intensity, and Soul Undercurrent

The number 9 is prominent in Ian Curtis’ chart. In a 4 personal year, May would be a 9 personal month, and the 18th would be a 9 personal day. Ian’s intensity number was also a 9, and his soul undercurrent was a 9.

On the surface, 9 is about endings, so his death is not a surprising event in this context. But the fact that this energy of self-negation appears frequently in key positions in Ian’s chart is interesting. As an undercurrent, it is a subtle influence, nearly imperceptible, but moves him through the events of his life the way a rutter propels a ship. 9 is a vortex energy (like 6 and 1) so its movement is powerful. It wants to do two things: Destroy and Resolve. This is the force that pulls matter apart, and is also the place where matter exists for rebuilding. It is a force of renewal, and offers a sense of fullness, safety, all-encompassing love, and oneness if one is courageous enough to surrender to its pull.

“Love Will Tear Us Apart” is perhaps Joy Division’s best known single, and the title’s  message corresponds to the action of 9 energy, essentially that all things are resorbed into oblivion. The cosmic force behind all destruction and rebuilding is attraction, gravity,  or as we qualify and romanticize it, love. Cosmically speaking, the force we call love is more impersonal than we care to admit. But its pull is,  in the end, irresistible, and we are undone by it.

We make judgments about failure, weakness, self-destructive behavior, but in nature, this action is a necessary part of creation. All of us will eventually be reduced to our component parts, becoming food or flower. The cycle goes on; this is the action of 9. It is possible to open to 9 without literally destroying the body, but one must be willing to forfeit everything to get there.

7Life Path, Karmic Lesson, Middle Name,

Ian’s middle name, Kevin, reduces to a 7. The middle name tells us about our emotional life, qualities that aren’t so obvious to casual observers. This number was also his Life Path – governing the terrain of his short journey here.

7 rules the world of dreams, prayers, all that lies beneath the surface – the hidden, mysterious forces that move through everything. Individuals who are walking a 7 life path are often hard to read, and prefer to be left to themselves, in quiet, in solitude.

The lesson of 7 is that of faith. When there are no obvious answers left, we have no other recourse  but go inward, to our dreams, to our god, to our own wisdom.

In Ian’s chart, we discover two energies that wish to accomplish opposing things: the anchoring, physical, matter-loving energy of 4, and the ephemeral, consciousness-dwelling aspect of 7.  To resolve these numbers, we subtract, and our resolution should be found in the number 3.  The difference then  between the material world (4) and dreams(7) is expression: art, music, celebration, love.

Certainly, Ian was able to express his soul through his music and poetry. There are those who wonder that if his epilepsy was better controlled,  then maybe he would have had the constitution to work through his depression. Epilepsy is an electrical surge – like lighting in the brain.  Lightning is the result of electrical charged air (7) making contact with earth(4). The discharge is seen and heard, and the air is purified. Perhaps his epilepsy was (holistically speaking) the surge of much creative energy  seeking outlet.

7 is also the vibration around the dark night of the soul – because it isolates. Interestingly, the house number of his Macclesfield home was 77. Part of the difficulty of working with 7 is the  fear of the unknown.  Ian Curtis’ life path energy would have taught him to have faith – that the answer will come, and the 9 energy in his chart would have reassured him that he didn’t always have to be right, it was his purpose to exist and dwell in love no matter what.

It’s been reported that he had been listening to Iggy Pop’s The Idiot before he died. The journey of 7 is to chance  looking like an idiot – of misstepping, of taking a risk and failing, of making a move without having all the information or having a Plan B. The 4 energy would have resisted this urge to move forward without due diligence.  Both vibrations seek perfection – a painful struggle, indeed.

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Autopsy #1: Layne Staley

Birth Name: Layne Thomas Staley 8-22-1967

Date of Death: 4-5-2002

Age: 34

7 – Personal Year at Death, Personal Day at Death, Age at Death, Attainment

The number 7 seems to cast a creepy shadow in Layne’s short life.  Staley was the original singer for Alice in Chains, and while other numbers in his chart are energies concerned with accomplishment and success, 7’s isolating force looms.  It was his attainment number, and his age when he died, 34, adds up to a 7, his personal year was a 7 the year he died, and his personal day on  April 5, 2002 was a 7.

Layne had struggled with heroin addiction for some years, and finally died of an overdose in his Seattle home in April of 2002. Over the years, his drug use had ravaged his body, and he had become emaciated, lost his teeth, and he sensed that he had reached his physical limit shortly before his death, confessing in a phone interview that he knew he was near death.

He had an 8 life path and an 8 destiny, and a 22 birthday – pretty ambitious and driven energy. He also had an artists soul with 6, 3, and 1—all creative numbers. His intensity was a 1, which may explain his tendency to be a loner, and mysterious.

He was just 3 years short of entering his third pinnancle/challenge, which was his main pinnacle and challenge that being a 3 – the artist. His life ended while he was in a 9 pinnacle and a 1 challenge. Interestingly, 1 was his intensity, and 9 was his karmic lesson.